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Tuesday, December 1st, 2009
musesfool	11:30a	tender and broken histories Have a poem: Tide of Voices At the hour the streetlights come on, buildings turn abstract. The Hudson, for a moment, formal. We drink bourbon on the terrace and you speak in the evening voice, weighted deep in the throat. They plan to harvest oysters, you tell me, from the harbor by Jersey City, how the waters will be clean again in twenty years. I imagine nets burdened with rough shells, the meat dun and sexual. Below, the river and the high rock where boys each year jump from bravado or desperation. The day flares, turns into itself. And innocently, sideways, the way we always fall into grace or knowledge, we watched the police drag the river for a suicide, the third this year. The terrible hook, the boy's frail whiteness. His face was blank and new as your face in the morning before the day has worked its pattern of lines and tensions. A hook like an iron question and this coming out of the waters, a flawed pearl — a memory that wasn't ours to claim. Perhaps, in a bedroom by lamplight, a woman waits for this boy. She may riffle drawers gathering photographs, string, keys to abandoned rooms. Even now she may be leaving, closing the door for some silence. I need to move next to you. Water sluiced from the boy's hair. I need to watch you light your cigarette, the flickering of your face in matchlight, as if underwater, drifting away. I take your cigarette and drag from it, touch your hand. Remember that winter of your long fever, the winter we understood how fragile any being together was. The wall sweated behind the headboard and you said you felt the rim where dreams crouch and every room of the past. It must begin in luxury — do you think — a break and fall into the glamour attending each kind of surrender. Water must flood the mind, as in certain diseases, the walls between the cells of memory dissolve, blur into a single stream of voices and faces. I don't know any more about this river or if it can be cleaned of its tender and broken histories — a tide of voices. And this is how the dead rise to us, transformed: wet and singing, the tide of voices pearling in our hands. ~Lynda Hull *** This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/101838.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: anxious Current Music: Reclamation - Fugazi (Comment on this)
alchemia	4:13a	Extremely short Meta Sometimes, disliking a female character has nothing to do with being misogynist.  Sometimes, one just doesn't find them likable regardless of their gender.  Other times, one dislikes them because the author's own misogyny shows through the character. Current Mood: annoyed (Comment on this)
Monday, November 30th, 2009
red_eft	11:34p	a winner is me! And now to catch up on everything I missed in November. But first: sleep. Comment at Dreamwidth Read comments Current Mood: accomplished (Comment on this)
musesfool	9:09p	I met you at the station in Ronkonkoma So, we had a committee meeting today, and I swear to god, I thought someone was going to start throwing things. Writing the minutes up should be an interesting exercise in doublespeak. Board meeting tomorrow, and then I am done, DONE I TELL YOU, until January. I mean, I still have to work etc., but the craziness should abate. I hope. I am tired. And it makes it really hard for me to write. Witness the tiny writing round-up! November 2009 Writing Roundup swim in my blood when it's warm Supernatural; Sam/Dean; pg; spoilers through 5.04; 3,434 words Sam's seeing everything clearly now. your ears tuned to the roar Supernatural; Jo, Ellen; pg; spoilers through 5.10; 1,510 words In which Jo grows up. * Top 5 Songs - November 2009 6. Levon - Elton John 5. Song to the Siren - Sheila Chandra 4. Set the Story Straight - Tom McRae 3. Somebody to Love - Glee cast version 2. The Shape I Found You In - Girlyman 1. Psalms 40:2 - the Mountain Goats * BSG folk, you totally need to watch this vid about the frakked up relationship between Bill Adama and Starbuck: Like My Very Own Blood by jarrow. It's FANTASTIC. Creepy and utterly heartbreaking and just... takes the idea that Adama made Starbuck into his second son, his replacement for Zak, to its logical conclusion, including the damage it inflicts on her, him, and Lee. And of course Kara accepts it, clings to it - how does she know any better? *cuddles her* Really well done, and you know how bad I am at getting vids, but this one made total sense to me. * This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/101593.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: Like a Luminous Girl - Mike Doughty (Comment on this)
alchemia	2:50p	Updates I just realised my last post (before the wishlist thingy) was over a month ago!  So updates.... The TB test was positive.  Really, Wtf.  Even the Dr's we've seen were Wtf, where'd you get that from?  Fortunately not in a contagious state, but still needs treating. Am working on ABP.  Really!  I am determined to get an update out before the end of the year.  And hopefully get back to some kind of posting schedule after that. Was rationing meds.  Got that problem fixed for the year.  Feeling better.  Tramadol increased from 90 per month to 240 per month.   Feeling much better. I did 2 holiday fan exchanges (Snarry holidays and Snapely holidays)!  Got them both in way before deadline.  And I don't hate them!  (A couple flaws jump out at me of course, but I think that's normal for artists).  Digital art, but I'm hoping this translates to more inspiration for actual painting on canvas.  (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, November 29th, 2009
musesfool	9:25p	lay out two or three good hits tonight Dear Sam, I am trying to get you laid. It would be easier if you weren't such an angsty motherfucker. Stop being so difficult! It's sex! It's supposed to be fun! No wonder most of the porn I write is about Dean. He rarely gives me this kind of trouble. Why can't you be more like your brother? frustratedly, me PS: Yes, I understand everyone you sleep with dies. I...am not breaking that streak. Um, sorry? I blame canon. Still, though. Sex! You should be less angsty about it! *** Holy shit, Jane Lynch is doing commercials for X-Box in which she is in character as Sue Sylvester. And they sing "Carry On Wayward Son." And the mother is a fan of Greco-Roman wrestling (i.e., oiled half-naked men getting sweaty together). I feel like this is some kind of crazy fannish collision. I am amused. *** This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/101306.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: amused Current Music: Ravens v. Steelers on tv (Comment on this)
red_eft	4:55p	nanooooo 42428 / 50000 words. 85% done! I just wrote for four straight hours, and still have a ways to go. Am way too close to let this fucker beat me now, though. Comment at Dreamwidth Read comments (Comment on this)
rivkat	7:49p	Random stuff I'm thinking about 1. Is it just me, or did Legend of the Seeker kick it up a notch in the past two episodes and start decreasing the pretty:interesting ratio? (While arguably getting prettier, even!) 2. Consider, if you will, that the all-male lawyers at this Texas firm saw nothing wrong with the images appearing on their website. (Possibly triggery for sexual abuse/child abuse.)  I actually believe very strongly that we need defense lawyers who specialize in crimes for which even defending an accused is excoriated—but this isn’t the way to do it. 3. Now for something completely different. I am a technological incompetent with a CMS on my website and a planned move to a new webhost. Anybody have recommendations for cheap assistance doing the move? And by assistance, I mean: somebody to whom I could trust with my site password and have the thing moved? Because the semester is so crazy, we’re probably looking at a move in early 2010. comments on DW Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: Depeche Mode, Wrong (Comment on this)
musesfool	12:42p	who got the will and the way Writing is hard. So I updated unfitforsociety instead, with 15 recs for November 2009: * 3 Supernatural * 3 crossovers * 2 White Collar * 2 Harry Potter * 2 Star Trek Reboot * 1 each Big Bang Theory, Dark Angel, and Psych *** Every time I listen to the Black Keys, I wonder why they haven't been used on SPN yet (if they were, I missed it). Dean could shock Sam by listening to something that was produced after 1979, but that still sounds like it came from the early '70s. Heh. *** This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/100934.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: Give Your Heart Away - the Black Keys (Comment on this)
alchemia	3:33a	wishlist 2009 I've been pretty conflicted about posting my wishlist; on one hand its something of a fandom/lj/lj-clones tradition, and although many people try to grant wishes, its not a required or expected part of making the list.  On the other hand, im really ashamed that I screwed up with Holiday wishes last year.   I don't even remember who I promised to send stuff too last year (can't look back at my emails because there was a computer mishap) I could explain about all our medical and financial and family crisises but I don't want to focus on the negative and I doubt you'd enjoy reading it either. If I promised you something last year, please let me know, and I'll try to make it right this year. ( Read more... ) (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 28th, 2009
musesfool	8:04p	she has fancy clothes and diamond rings The uploading continues apace. I am almost ready to stop for the evening and maybe try to write. Or something. I miss writing. It's been days since I did any. Sigh. I was uploading a lot of the codas I wrote in season 2, when I was still in the first flush of fandom love, and wow, season 2 was good for codas. I think I wrote at least one (sometimes more than one) for almost every episode. I miss that, too. * Tonight for dinner I made a roast loin of pork. It was very tasty. I combined garlic powder, onion powder, oregano, and basil in about a tablespoon of olive oil (for easy spreading), along with a couple of teaspoons of brown sugar and a large splash of vanilla (for years, I wouldn't tell my mother about the brown sugar and vanilla, and she couldn't replicate the taste. Heh.). Rub that on, top with a few pats of butter, and then cook until the internal temperature is 160°F. It was very tasty and juicy and good. * This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/100853.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: melancholy Current Music: baby, if you wanna be wild, you got a lot to learn (Comment on this)
Friday, November 27th, 2009
musesfool	11:40p	backpage news down in the neighborhood I don't really care about so much about the plots on White Collar. They just keep giving me tasty OT3 stuff and I'm content. I've spent most of the day uploading stuff to the AO3. It allows me to feel productive when I can't write. I have too many goddamn stories, though. angelgazing pointed out that I will never be done uploading because I write faster than I upload. Though possibly this is no longer the case. I don't know. I have been having my usual late autumn/early winter problems getting motivated. Since the archive takes so long to upload, I am also rereading some favorite stories (I don't have to pay as close attention to rereads - I can skim and skip and be interrupted without losing anything, 'cause I've already read them before). I keep getting errors, unfortunately, which is slowing things down even more. Technology is not my friend. I know lots of people are excited by tagging their stories in all sorts of ways, but I am doing what I find useful and that's it. As long as I get the characters/pairing on there, and maybe if it's a casefile or an episode tag, that's about the extent of my interest. Maybe if I upload my HP stuff, I'll split the Remus/Sirius out by era, like I have it in my tags on LJ, but mostly I don't care about the tags. *hides* Also, I wish there were a place in the profile to link to a warnings policy, and that that link could just automatically be included on every story. Because I am just using the "No Primary Warnings Apply" which isn't the same as "no warnings needed" but 99% of my stuff is "no warnings needed" and I'd like to be able to say that somewhere, since it isn't a choice on the warnings field. I guess I could make it a tag, but I never think of it. I wish it were automatic. Hmm... *** This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/100505.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: lazy Current Music: Boom Boom Boom - the Iguanas (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 26th, 2009
musesfool	10:24p	he's done it with just one hand most of the time Happy Thanksgiving to those who are celebrating! Happy Thursday to those who are not. I hope everyone had a lovely day, regardless. My day began with BACON and PIE and ended with FOOTBALL and PIE, and in between there was stuffing and homemade cheese macaroni and turkey that was actually moist and tasty (!!), and more family shenanigans than you could shake a stick at. My brother was in rare form tonight, and basically had the whole table in stitches for most of the meal. Mostly at my expense, but eh, that's not new. and unfortunately, the Giants are capping off the day by sucking like unto a hoover, but I am too full and sleepy to care too much. I am thankful for my family, my friends - including you guys - my health, and my job. Man, a year ago at this time, I was a week away from being laid off. I'm still a little freaked out by how that went, still anxious and lacking in confidence sometimes, but I'm so glad I found a new job quickly, and one that I mostly like, for people and an organization that I like. (I'm also grateful that I have tomorrow off and I don't have to use a day - it's one of our holidays. Mmm...sleeping in...) I'm grateful I have health insurance and can pay my rent and that I have an apartment I love. I'm thankful for fandom, not just because of all the great stories to read and the feeling of having people who get my excitement about various shows and characters, but because of all the great people I've met and become friends with, who've made my life richer and better and more fun all around. *hugs* And also, I am thankful for PIE, and I would share some with you all if I could. *** This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/100175.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: Giants v. Broncos on tv (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 25th, 2009
musesfool	10:41p	mama, put my guns in the ground Criminal Minds ( spoilers ) *** Maybe I will try to write. I would like to post one more story this month, if possible, before I buckle down on yuletide and broken toys. *** This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/100016.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: lethargic Current Music: Knockin' On Heaven's Door - G'n'R (Comment on this)
musesfool	11:55a	some days, there's nothing left to learn So I have this thing where I reverse numbers all the time, e.g., I usually have to redial new to me phone numbers two or three times because I switch the order of the numbers, etc. NOTE TO SELF: NOW IS NOT THE TIME TO BE DYSLEXIC WITH ROMAN NUMERALS! *** This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/99809.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: busy Current Music: i saved the world today - eurythmics (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 24th, 2009
musesfool	11:44p	with a red guitar on fire For tonight's bout of stress baking, I made blueberry boy bait (as recommended by devildoll), which came out well, I think (I am taking half to work and half to the parents), but I also think it needs more blueberries. Clearly I need to double the amount next time. And possibly make it in cupcake tins or my mini-loaf pan. Hmm... Maybe one day I'll be like a real food blogger and remember to take pictures of stuff before I slice into it and wrap it up. Today was not that day. On my ride home tonight (I was at work late again), I listened to Adam Raised a Cain a few times and vidded it in my head. I would be the most literal vidder ever. Anyway. I know I say this all the time, but where is the Sam Winchester vid to this song? WHERE IS IT? I think this season has provided more awesome footage for someone to do this. ( the lyrics, in case you missed them the first 100 times I mentioned this idea ) Seriously, if I had minions, I would make one of them vid this for me. *** This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/99442.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: desire - u2 (Comment on this)
musesfool	2:07p	big fish, little fish some days, the bear definitely eats you. favorite repeated typos of today: RPF for RFP partners hips for partnerships *** This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/99128.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: stressed Current Music: down by the water - pj harvey (Comment on this)
Monday, November 23rd, 2009
red_eft	11:10p	huzzah! stuff! Yuletart image is sent out one hour ahead of deadline (wooo), sweet potatoes for potluck tomorrow are in the fridge, and I am over 30K on my novel. I feel this has been a Good Day. ...still 10,000 behind on NaNo, but. That's okay! Comment at Dreamwidth Read comments (Comment on this)
musesfool	11:01p	please tell me we'll stop for popcorn on the way Big Bang Theory ( spoilers ) *** Castle I don't think I like Beckett's hair. It's too...helmety. Or something. ( spoilers ) *happy sigh* Castle is my happy place. Now I need to sleep because I have to be in early tomorrow for meetings. Ugh. *** This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/99055.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: sleepy (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 22nd, 2009
musesfool	11:44a	fic: your ears tuned to the roar (SPN; Jo, Ellen; gen) your ears tuned to the roar Supernatural; Jo, Ellen; pg; spoilers through 5.10; 1,510 words In which Jo grows up. Thanks to angelgazing for handholding and title-wrangling. ( your ears tuned to the roar ) ~*~ Feedback is adored. ~*~ This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/98389.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: hungry Current Music: Rhiannon - Fleetwood Mac (Comment on this)
skuf	10:31a	And now, for something completely different 1. I feel behind on fandom stuff, not least my f-lists. If you feel neglected, you're not imagining it. 2. Hello, sexism. And yet I'm totally tempted to install o_O 3. I don't need to run a ½-marathon - it's much more fun to read about ilanarama's marathons! 4. Without being able to say something intelligent about it, I'm extremely fascinated by the fact that I share virtual culture with people whose meatspace culture I don't share. Case in point: 100 Greatest Internet Videos In 3 Minutes. The music is obnoxious as hell, and I don't know all the clips. But the ones I do know are part of an internet culture I share with people from all over the world, but who's not a part of my meatspace culture. Know what I mean? Well, I'm fascinated. 5. I'm also endlessly fascinated with people who can do things with their bodies that I could never hope to do. Point: http://www.collegehumor.com/video:1903600 6. Pollz! Poll #4614 Open to: All, results viewable to: All Which impressed you most? (You get multiple choice, because I'm nice [and impressed] like that) View Answers Drywall guy 2 (100.0%) "Two receivers, two footballs" 1 (50.0%) Ball machine guy 1 (50.0%) Sign guy 0 (0.0%) "One more time" 1 (50.0%) Bell tower 2 (100.0%) Car diver 1 (50.0%) OT: Camping!fic? View Answers Yay 1 (50.0%) Nay 0 (0.0%) Never read one 1 (50.0%) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
skuf	9:59a	IJ economics According to my count of announcements announcements [sic], InsaneJournal has had seven account sales in 2009 (the seventh was just announced). I find that troubling, but am strangely adverse to mentioning it - because, I guess, I still feel grateful squeaky was so welcoming to us LJ refugees in 2007. At any rate, I get the impression IJ economics are either unstable, or squeaky wants a bigger personal profit out of the site. Which I can't say I blame him for; we all would like to be paid for our work. But I am questionable about the future of IJ. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, November 21st, 2009
musesfool	9:33p	i am riddled like the tide Sigh. My cake didn't rise, and worse, it tastes like failure. *crosses that recipe off the list* On the upside, there was reviewing of yuletide source. Now I just have to figure out what I'm writing. *** This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/98189.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: quixotic Current Music: Song to the Siren - Sheila Chandra (Comment on this)
musesfool	4:32p	be at least three days til she knows her heart has been broken Okay, this is the plan for hiatus: 1. yuletide 2. Broken Toys 3. the 5.10 story I'm working on right now (I keep having to stop because it's making me cry! That never happens to me when I write!) 4. The Dean-Michael dream story 5. Drought Conditions (casefile) 6. Nothing but Winter in my Cup (casefile) 7. the Dean/Sam/Pam story That's quite a lot, considering November and December are usually the time of my fannish malaise. This song is not helping with the crying, iTunes! Now, though, I think I am going to bake a cake. *** This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/98022.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: ambitious Current Music: Leaving Atlanta - Vienna Teng (Comment on this)
musesfool	1:58a	across the fields of mourning, lights in the distance Oy, this day. Or, well, yesterday, at this point. The less said, the better. And did I mention I got my period this morning? oy. I left work late - I think I was the only person left in the office - and all I wanted was to come home and watch this week's Friday Night Lights. But the file I dl'd wouldn't play on WMP or QT or even VLC. I updated DivX and it wouldn't play on that either. So I deleted it, rebooted, and redownloaded, and it worked. I thought I might actually get through the episode without crying. I don't know why I thought that. I don't think it's ever happened, and it certainly did not happen tonight. Friday Night Lights: A Sort of Homecoming ( spoilers ) *** Okay, I just asked this in meret's comments, but ( spoilers for SPN s5 that's aired so far ) *** *yawn* Man, I totally need to sleep. *** This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/97606.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: sleepy (Comment on this)

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